Signs You're Actually Self-Sabotaging Yourself
If you find yourself constantly feeling discouraged, unable to commit to your goals or see things through, then you may be self-sabotaging. Sometimes we can get in our own way without even realizing that the root of some of our issues is our mindset. When Girlfriends hit Netflix, one thing I just couldn't get over was the self-sabotaging traits Joan portrayed. I felt that she was more than capable and deserving of having a successful career and marriage. Unfortunately, she got in her own way a lot, and, honestly, a lot of us do the same thing.
I don't want this article to trigger you, instead, let this be a self-reflection because we all have exhibited some self-sabotaging behaviors in our lives. Self-sabotaging can be caused by a number of things like low self-esteem, a desire to gain a sense of control, a result of anxiety, and just not even realizing the things we do and say to ourselves. Recently, I saw a post on Twitter by ThirdEyeLove which laid out traits of a self-sabotager and how she overcame it. Per that thread, here are signs that you are actually self-sabotaging yourself.
Not Asking For Help
GiphyAsking for help is not easy but neither is trying to do everything by yourself. The stress of finishing school, elevating in your career, or starting a business is stressful in itself, so adding all the burden to yourself is a surefire way to feel defeated and discouraged.
Remember asking for help doesn't make you weak, it actually makes you more aware and efficient. You are able to acknowledge what you need and find resources that can help you achieve your goals, in fact, it may also help you build a community. For me, I used to hate asking for help because of how people made me feel about it. But, it's also important to remember it's normal, and if you find someone along the way that isn't willing to help in your time of need, there are so many other people and resources that will.
Rejecting Praise/Not Giving Yourself Praise
GiphyI personally struggle with accepting and giving myself praise. Sometimes I get so in my head about where I want to be that I can't accept people congratulating me or acknowledge it myself. Hella self-sabotaging!
We have to celebrate small wins and allow people to celebrate us too. Don't feel guilty about enjoying the fruits of your labor and don't ignore how far you have come. It becomes harder to keep going if you don't accept the work you've put in or at least allow people to appreciate the things you do and have to offer in the present. The next time someone praises you or your work, accept it and express gratitude because it's hard to see your growth if you keep overlooking it.
Isolating Yourself
GiphyThis is probably one of the most dangerous self-sabotaging traits. When you isolate yourself, you tend to distance yourself from friends and family, not leave the house, become unmotivated, and you're just stuck feeling hopeless. Sometimes that feeling can go on for days, weeks, and even months. You're no longer connected to anything other than those feelings and it can feel like things are getting darker and darker. Don't get me wrong, it's completely fine to take your space, but committing to complete isolation can be mentally, emotionally, and physically damaging.
Saying "Yes" To Everything
GiphySaying "yes" to everything, especially the things you don't want to do can be draining. Most of us want to please people and help the people around us which is amazing, but not if it costs you your sanity and the way you are able to show up for yourself. If you have people in your life who like to take and take and take, then you know what I'm talking about.
Constantly saying "yes" to everything can cause burnout. The energy (or lack thereof) will show up in your day-to-day tasks. I'm not saying to never say "yes", but practice balance. Don't just be a people-pleaser, be a you-pleaser!
Putting Your Needs On Hold
GiphyPutting your own needs on hold is a self-sabotaging behavior that piggybacks off of saying "yes" to everything. You can also be self-sabotaging yourself because you're putting your needs last. Need is defined as a requirement and an obligation. We need water, we need food, we need shelter -- those are the basics to live so we make sure we have those things in place. So why should your needs be treated any differently in any other area of your life?
It's easy for things to fall through the cracks but the longer you put your needs on the back-burner or ignore it, the more unfulfilled, lost, or hopeless you'll feel. The more you neglect your needs, the more this becomes a habit. Don't forget that you are special too!
You deserve the same amount of love, effort, and commitment that you work hard to give other people.
You're Procrastinating
GiphyWe all have been guilty of procrastinating at some point or another. Sometimes I think we procrastinate because we believe we aren't ready, we're fearful, or we have more time than we think. Procrastination, if done too much, can be sabotaging and can destroy long-standing goals, commitments, and dreams.
The more you procrastinate, the more time you waste, and the harder it is to reach your goals. I'm not going to lie and act like procrastination is an easy fix because it's not. In order to kick procrastination, you have to change your mindset, set realistic deadlines that include time for you to recharge, and remember that you are worthy of the things you set out to work for.
Trying To Be Perfect
GiphyPerfectionism is another dream killer. How many times have you waited to do or share something because it wasn't 'perfect'? We put so much pressure on ourselves to have things be the best, but what if we just showed up as ourselves?
We're humans, we make mistakes but we also grow and get better. Embracing the process and who we are is very important when it comes to this form of self-sabotage.
Striving for perfectionism not only causes you to be hard on yourself but it also prevents you from completing tasks or projects, owning your mistakes and flaws, facing your reality, and ultimately results in a lack of fulfillment. What makes this extremely self-sabotaging is that we put these pressures on ourselves despite knowing perfection is unattainable. Ease up and give yourself the grace of being human.
Negative Self-Talk
GiphyNegative self-talk is something we all fall victim to. The quote, "The words you speak become the house you live in" is nothing but facts. What you say becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy so when you think you can't do things or that you aren't good enough, you'll believe it's true. Eventually, you'll start feeling unmotivated, hopeless, and feel like you aren't enough. Imagine waking up every morning and saying you'll never reach your goals.
Positive affirmations are very powerful and key to manifesting the life you hope to lead. Instead of speaking about yourself or your life negatively, talking positively to and about yourself can make a huge difference when it comes to tackling new events/situations, boosting confidence/self-esteem, and being able to face each day.
The first step to starting anything is believing you can.
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Navigating Dating When Emotionally Unavailable & Detached: My Journey Back To Feeling
The last time I came with a dating story, I told you I got my little feelings hurt in 2021. I called myself trying to be out in these streets entertaining a man in a different area code, city, and state — only for homeboy to play in my damn face. So, I went and gave y’all "8 Rules To Casual Dating Every Woman Should Know This Summer." You’re welcome. Fast forward to 2024, and I am now coming to you from a more mature and intentional place. We’re not in summer yet, but I truly believe what blooms in spring, thrives in summer.
2023 was my year, and it was my turn. I had just completed an 8-month holistic detox. The glow-up was real and well-deserved. The way I have poured into myself is unmatched. Let me tell you, self-love is a love you have never known. After a five-year healing journey, I finally felt like myself again, and I was ready to play. My heart was open, my mind was clear, and my body hella transformed. I had told all my friends that I was ready to explore dating again, and at the height of summer, I did exactly just that.
This time I decided I wanted to take my time. I wanted to date the “right way” or the “healthy way.” You know, keep your options open, ask the right questions, believe actions and not words, observe patterns and pay attention to red, yellow, and green flags. I was never the dating app type of girl. I sincerely miss everything about human connection and dating from 2000 to 2012. Can we please bring all of that back into 2024? I prefer to feel a man’s energy and presence in real-time. Nonetheless, I still chose to dabble with a few dating apps. I was all the way outside and dating for practice.
Unfortunately, with today’s dating culture, social climate, and how some of these men move and/or behave, these dates were a dead end. Not one guy made it to my roster. What these men were was benched this season – not one of them could be my first-round select draft pick. It didn't seem like anyone I met was interested in a serious relationship. And it’s completely fine. Miss me with the ghosting, lack of effort, inconsistency, and poor communication. I continued to just do me because what is for me will not miss me.
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The universe must have heard me talking because I had specifically told my closest girlfriends that I wanted to meet someone who lived in the vicinity, no more than twenty minutes away, and no more long distance. And I did meet him (it’s crazy how I manifest exactly what I want). As we started to get to know each other, I liked his energy and effort. I liked the direction it seemed to be going to the point my girlfriends had to tell me not to run from him. Because every part of me wanted to run from something that seemed normal.
I liked what he was coming with until I became uncomfortable with my own feelings, and I didn’t know how to communicate them to him.
With that said, I knew if I truly wanted to experience the truest of loves, a reciprocal, requited love, and be in a healthy relationship this story had to come to a pause. What I didn’t know was that he was going to show me things I didn’t know I needed to work on. I didn’t know he inadvertently was going to help me continue to heal parts of me that were hidden.
As someone who has learned to self-heal, I am no longer the type that runs from herself. I am here for the growth.
The truth is I am emotionally detached from myself, and I am not actively dating at the moment. I am the one that has to work on herself. My reiki healer called it, too – she told me this year would not be a year for a relationship, but a year of continuous growth. And now I see why. After all the healing work I have done thus far – I am an unemotional mess. How?
At my big age of 39, I struggle to communicate my wants and needs.
I still struggle to communicate and process uncomfortable feelings. I would rather give myself anxiety, act nonchalantly, emotionally react, and choose non-communication when I am bothered with someone than address the issue (I will later explain why). I have been ignoring my feelings for so long it has become a habit, a defense mechanism, and more so a trauma response.
If you are someone like me who grew up in a household that didn’t discuss feelings, your emotional needs were unmet, and you don’t feel safe to share your feelings – emotional detachment is quite common.
Oftentimes, we always talk about men being emotionally unavailable, but what if it’s a woman who is emotionally unavailable or emotionally detached? How does she navigate herself, dating, or being in a relationship? As I navigate my emotions this season, let’s explore what it means to be emotionally detached, the signs of detachment, and how to reconnect with yourself emotionally.
Emotional Unavailability vs. Emotional Detachment
When we look at the terminology emotional unavailability and emotional detachment, one might argue that the two terms are interchangeable and have the same meaning. One could also argue that both terms mean that some people are not in tune with their emotions or lack the emotional capacity to be responsive to someone else’s emotions. Fair enough. However, there is a big difference. The definition of emotional unavailability is described as people who have difficulty with sharing their emotions and being receptive to the emotions of those around them.
According to Verywell Mind, signs of emotional unavailability can look like being distant or cold, lack of closeness, and emotional intimacy in relationships, inability to understand and relate to others’ feelings, defensiveness when asked to change or let others in, tendency to shut down or avoid topics that require emotional openness, or withdrawal from people or situations that provoke emotional reactions.
Whereas emotional detachment is defined as the inability to or willingness to connect with others on an emotional level. Furthermore, Psychology Today states emotional detachment can also mean that people do not engage with their feelings. Exhibit A – me. Emotional detachment has various causes – past neglect, childhood or adult trauma, PTSD, depression, personality disorder, bipolar disorder, substance abuse, or, in some cases, medication (i.e. antidepressants). It is important to note emotional detachment is a complex issue. For someone like me, it’s a coping mechanism.
It is easier for me to ignore uncomfortable feelings to protect myself from stress or getting hurt. Hence, my nonchalant demeanor. It is also true for some people it is a reaction to trauma, abuse, and unprocessed emotions. Exhibit B – me. As it is difficult for me to open up about my feelings at the moment. On the contrary – emotional detachment can be helpful in navigating some situations like listening to people’s opinions and gossip.
Unfortunately, emotional detachment is not a behavior that can be turned on and off at will. Please note that emotional detachment is NOT a mental health diagnosis but can be a symptom of a mental health condition such as an attachment disorder. And if you know anything about attachment theory, it is related to the relationship we develop in our childhood with our primary caregivers.
Signs You're Emotionally Detached
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According to Psychology Today and Verywell Mind, general signs of emotional detachment can look like difficulty showing empathy to others, sharing emotions, committing to a relationship, feeling numb, poor listening skills, lack of self-esteem, preferring to be alone, struggling to feel positive emotions, inability to identify emotions, lack of physical, verbal, or sexual contact and losing touch with people or maintaining connections.
In a romantic relationship, emotional detachment shows up as you or your partner not being available for connection, poor communication, or reduced affection.
For me, my experience with emotional detachment is collective. I am an empath to my core. I don’t have a problem relating to other’s feelings or circumstances. I don’t have commitment issues, nor do I have an issue connecting with others or maintaining those connections. I struggle with sharing emotions, at least the negative ones.
Due to the emotional abuse from my childhood and a toxic relationship, I learned sharing emotions just wasn't the safe thing to do. As a survivor of trauma, I learned to suppress feeling negative emotions in general as a form of protection.
How To Reconnect To Your Emotions When You're Emotionally Unavailable
Serious Kid Cudi GIF by Apple MusicGiphyExploring my emotional side in-depth started late last year simply by noticing my reaction to something that he did. I didn’t know how to properly communicate to him how I was feeling or what he did bothered me in the moment. So, I swallowed my feelings and said absolutely nothing. I intentionally chose to avoid the issue. I chose to rationalize the situation instead of acknowledging that my feelings at the time were valid. I chose to act like everything was all good because it was all good.
“It wasn’t that deep to begin with” is what I told myself. And this is where the problem lies.
The saying is true, “What happens in your childhood shows up in your adult relationships.” I came to realize that because I was not able to express my feelings as a child, I struggled to process them. I either hold back my feelings, take a long time to say how I feel, or don’t say anything at all. This is because I fear people will walk away from me like my mother did if I share what I truly feel. I fear my feelings won’t be validated, or they will be rejected.
With that said, I was completely unaware that I was emotionally detached from myself until recently. So, here we are with this article. It all started by reading Instagram’s @theholisticpsychologist, Dr. Nicole LePera’s newest book How to Be the Love You Seek: Break Cycles, Find Peace, and Heal Your Relationships, which was released on November 28, 2023. As I read through the first chapter, I became triggered.
How Dr. LePera describes her childhood with her parents and experiences with her romantic partners somewhat mirrored my experiences with my own parents and relationships. As Dr. LaPera stated in her book, I have no issue showing up for others or meeting their needs and wants. But when it comes to expressing my own needs and wants – I cannot or I don’t. This is mainly due to my hyper-independence.
At an early age, I learned to show up for myself because the people I trusted to show up for me failed. Given my home environment, I had internalized it is not safe to talk about feelings. I never knew my emotional responses and behavior were abnormal. But because I am willing to continue to do my inner work, I know that I can reconnect to my emotions, and undo four decades of repressed emotions.
If you are someone like me who struggles with emotional connection with yourself and others, here is how you go about it:
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1. Know Your Attachment Style
For me, the first step was to understand my attachment style. I asked my therapist if she could help me identify my attachment style to understand my triggers. She recommended The Attachment Theory Workbook by Annie Chen, LMFT. My therapist administered the associated online quiz – Attachment Quiz. If you haven’t figured out my attachment style yet by reading this article, I have an anxious attachment style.
This means I don’t do well with inconsistent behavior, especially from men (but I’m the type that holds men to standards too). People with an anxious attachment style have a need to feel close to their partner. It may come across as “clingy” or “needy.” However, this same need is often driven by fear of abandonment, mistrust, and low self-esteem. I would say knowing your attachment style is helpful because you can work towards having a secure attachment style (with practice) in your relationships – familial, business, work, platonic, or romantic.
2. Become Self-Aware
Most people who are not in the practice of self-care or self-healing are unaware of their triggers, patterns, and behaviors. We are so caught up in the daily minutiae of life that we forget to pay attention to the most important part of our days — ourselves. As Dr. LePera says, make it a conscious habit to pause throughout your day to check in with yourself. Ask yourself:
- How does my body feel?
- What am I doing right now?
- Am I present?
- Am I distracted and lost with other thoughts?
- What do I think or feel when I recall a specific experience with someone?
- What do I think or worry about?
- What would happen if I shared my authentic thoughts, perspective, feelings right now?”
This is what Dr. LePera refers to as exploring your embodied self or fulfilling your authentic needs in chapter two of her book. Consistent mindfulness and self-awareness are key to self-discovery and in any healing journey. Learning to focus on the present moment also includes paying attention to our emotional response to an event or how we think about emotions in general.
3. Practice Vulnerability
The idea of vulnerability is a tough one for me and so many other women for countless reasons. Whether it be toxic family, friendships, relationships, or trauma – trusting others with your thoughts and feelings is not easy. As much as I am open and transparent, I am not as vulnerable. And I believe there is so much power in the duality to be both. To trust someone, let alone a man with your authentic self is a delicate matter.
But it is emotional vulnerability that allows us humans to build authentic connections, create stronger relationships, and break down emotional walls. Emotional vulnerability is not something to be rushed – it takes time and practice from you and the people you choose to have in your life. Medical News Today suggests that we can learn to be vulnerable by opening up more to our closest friends, building our ability to become more trusting, and developing skills to regulate our emotions.
4. Seek Therapy
I have been in therapy for six years and counting. I would consider therapy one of my safe spaces. I am one of those individuals who recommend therapy to everyone as it has given me the tools and resources I need to navigate my life challenges. By choosing to get help, I was able to put my PTSD and depression in remission for four years now. I have also learned how to manage my anxiety.
I am fully aware that in this season of my life requires me to do the work to unlock new levels of self. And any time where I have consciously chosen growth – the universe or life has not failed me. I was able to heal my body, my heart, and my spirit. Now, it’s time to heal my inner child, this hurt little girl who lives in me.
I will say choosing a therapist is similar to dating; you might go through a few potentials until you find a therapist you connect with. Actually, one of my lifelong friends said to me the other day, “Your relationship with your therapist is one of the most important relationships in your life.” I needed her to say that, and I needed to hear it because it’s true. You are essentially trusting a licensed stranger to help you navigate your life on so many levels.
Be picky and ask the questions. Cut the cord at the first red flag given. Again, let me reiterate that emotional detachment is not a mental health diagnosis. It can be treated with the help of a therapist. Emotional detachment only becomes a problem when it starts to interfere with your daily life. Pay attention to changes in your daily behavior and make decisions to cope accordingly.
I am genuinely excited about reconnecting with my emotions. I want to feel all the feels – good, bad, and indifferent. I want to cry all the tears – especially the sad ones. I want to process and release negative emotions. I want to say how I feel in the moment with no fear.
If you are that girl who struggles with emotional connection or thinks you're emotionally detached, I hope that you become willing to face your inner child and show up for her. Don’t run – she has been waiting for you.
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