What do you do when your relationship is amazing but there is no sexual chemistry?
You test-drove the car with your feelings already invested, but you hate the way it rides. Could you continue to love your man, spend a lifetime with him and your awkward sexual encounters, or do you walk away from the best man you have ever dated for the sake of an orgasm?
The idea that sex is this carnivore act, where flames ignite from within and fireworks explode in the background. That sexy explosion of passion and lust gets lost in trying to explore erotic sexual positions that we just never can get right. Although there is an insatiable hunger for sex and a whirlwind of lust happening in my panties, I find myself very sexually unsatisfied.
All other aspects of my relationship are perfect; the man is simply amazing. He is the calm before the storm, the light at the end of the tunnel, the proof that after kissing many frogs you can find your prince. He is slightly romantic in an adorable kind of way, and the perfect gentleman. This man is the ultimate provider and loves me completely. Sometimes I find myself praying to God to never take him away from me because I have never experienced this kind of love. Although this relationship is still a newborn baby that needs more foundation and nourishment, I can see myself marrying this man.
Yes ladies, I am in a perfect relationship from the outside in. But lets be honest, nothing is without flaw. This topic is too sensitive to confide in friends and family so I find myself asking the world wide web, what do you do when your sex life is boring?
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I wonder if it is me, or maybe it is us and we are just not sexually compatible. There is also the fact that he is not the most, well endowed. But again no one is perfect and he has shown that he loves me flaws and all, so I do my best to reciprocate the unconditional love. There have been many Google searches and plenty of practice and sometimes we figure it out and have decent sex. I often wonder if this man asked me to marry him today could I live with our sex for the rest of my life? I am not ready to give it up but I am desperately afraid that our lackluster sex will be the demise of my most incredible relationship ever. We both try very hard to please each other and I appreciate his efforts. We adore one another and I am so very thankful.
So I guess my question is, what should I do?
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“I’m a different person, you know, now than I was January 19,” King shared. “Grief is a journey, you know? I understand that grief is love that has no place to go.”
“I know that it’s important for me to honor Ian in the totality of who he is, speak about him in the present because he is always with me and the joy and happiness that he gave all of us,” she added.
The Shirley star also added that it's vital to discuss the common misconception surrounding depression, noting that battles with mental health can manifest in diverse ways. “When it comes to depression, people expect it to look a certain way — they expect it to look heavy,” King told Robin Roberts.
“To have to experience this and not be able to have the time to just sit with Ian’s choice, which I respect and understand… He didn’t want to be here anymore, and that’s a hard thing for other people to receive because they did not live our experience, did not live Ian’s journey.”
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The Academy Award winner openly revealed that she was initially “so angry with God.”
“Why would that weight be given to Ian? Of all of the things that we had gone through — therapy, psychiatrists, programs — and Ian was like, ‘I’m tired of talking, Mom,' " she said.
With the memory of her son near to her, King said through tears, “My favorite thing about myself is being Ian’s mom and I can say that with a smile, with tears, with all of the emotion that comes with that. I can’t do that if I did not respect the journey.”
Anderson, 26, was a musician, DJ, and King’s only child. In 2019, Ian escorted his mother on the red carpet of the Golden Globes where she took home the award for "Best Supporting Actress in a Motion Picture."
He toldE! News at the time, "She's just a super mom. She doesn't really let bad work days or anything come back and ruin the time that we have. It's really awesome to have a mother who I can enjoy spending time with."
Understanding that grief is shared by many others, King emphasizes the unique weight of her role as Ian's mother and acknowledges that the sadness will always be a part of her.
“Sometimes, a lot of guilt comes over me. When a parent loses a child, you still wonder, ‘What could I have done so that wouldn’t have happened?’ I know that I share this grief with everyone, but no one else is Ian’s mom, you know? Only me. So it’s mine. And the sadness will never go away. It will always be with me.”
If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), text "STRENGTH" to the Crisis Text Line at 741-741, or go to suicidepreventionlifeline.org.
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