Lizzo has had one helluva month, and we're literally only 12 days in. A few days ago, the 31-year-old entertainer let it all hang out at a Lakers' game, triggering a polarizing online debate that had everyone (and they mama) talking. Despite whatever your thoughts may be about her bodaciously bold courtside move, it's important to note that Lizzo didn't become the number one artist in the country by giving a damn about what other people have to say, and that's big facts.
If you didn't know who the "Truth Hurts" singer was in 2019, it's clear that sis refuses to be ignored in 2020. Earlier this week, TIME named the Detroit-born diva Entertainer of The Year, and in her interview, she got real about the effect her newfound success has had on her mental state. The singer explained that although her music was quickly climbing the charts, she still felt stuck in rut she couldn't seem to shake until recently.
"From March to… now! I was experiencing a little bit of unhappiness. I was not happy with the way I felt to my body. I didn't feel sexy, and I didn't know when it was going to end. There were times when I would go onstage and be like, 'Y'all, I'm not going to lie. I'm not feeling myself.'"
We all have moments of insecurity, but Lizzo just so happened to be managing hers in front of the entire world. She explained that there were even times during her shows where she would break down in tears:
"Sometimes I'd break down and cry. Sometimes the audience would just cheer to make me feel better. I was getting sick a lot. I was like, What the f-ck is going on? I need to fall back in love with my body. I didn't want to be famous. I wanted to be like Brandon Boyd from Incubus! I just want to go to the farmers' market."
Now, after surviving the death of her father, chronic depression, and an overflow of f*ckboys, Lizzo needs you to know the only opinion of herself that matters is her own. Along with Skyping her therapist on the road, Lizzo says being her truest self in front of her fans has allowed her to fall out of the comment section and back in love with her own body. She told The Los Angeles Times:
"I'm not like a consummate performer that puts on this happy face. I'm an emoter. And sometimes I cry when I sing these songs. I just started bringing my therapist on the road via Skype. I don't hide what I'm going through. And that's why my music is the way it is."
For Lizzo, being body-positive AF keeps her feeling herself even if she isn't really feeling herself.
"I think it's healthy to have a relationship with your naked body, even if no one ever sees it. But I've always felt the need to share it."
To check out Lizzo's full interview, click here!
Featured image by Instagram/@LizzoBeEating.