I Stood By My Man For 10 Years But He Chose To Marry Someone Else...
I was that girl, that girl who fell in love with a boy at 16, and saw forever in his eyes.
"This is who I'm going to marry," I'd say to myself. We would outlast those other high school relationships that didn't survive the first year of college. We were looked at with those, "Damn, y'all still together?!" faces. We'd eventually grow older and went to separate but nearby colleges, but that still couldn't keep us apart.
Hell, growing apart didn't keep us apart.
As I grew up, I knew we were both changing into who we were meant to be as individuals, but I couldn't get over what I believed to be true. Plus, with all the on and off break ups and drama, I'd viewed myself as the girl that put in work to "save" my relationship, and thereby secured my future. I was the ride or die, “holding it down" type of girl. Boy, did I learn the hard way that what God has in store for you is completely different from your own plans.
I was at my lowest with him, but I was so comfortable with that low-life (figuratively and literally), that I didn't want more for myself. I was insecure, and he'd made sure I stayed that way. I felt like this is who/what I needed to hold on to.
My thought was as long as I had someone and wasn't alone, I was good.
I have always admired older couples who'd been together since their teenage years. That was the life to me, having a partner in life that has been with you through all the awkward stages with you and had loved you the entire time.
I didn't want to know my reality, and my reality was that I was scared of the unknown. And honestly scared of just letting go. I knew this person was no longer “the one" for me. My family and friends knew it too. So months after he and I broke up – which included a break from sex, social media, and a few other things – I gave myself time to concentrate on myself and the things I wanted. I wrote, studied the word, visited TD Jakes' The Potters House, and got my life. I also got inspired by Sarah Jakes' story, prayed, and finally, the big sigh of relief came.
And that sigh was my sign that it was time for me to move forward.
About seven months later, God literally brought a man into my life. I wasn't even looking, but there he was. I fell in love and it's still going strong. But one day, on a random date night with my new man, I scrolled down my timeline on social media and learned that my ex was getting married the following day. The guy I once saw forever with, the guy I stayed in a relationship with for ten years, the same guy I walked away from in April, was engaged in December and married that following June.
And I cried.
I became that girl that gives someone their all for years only to be the afterthought of the guy who'd married the next chick six months later. Apparently, that's a more common occurrence than I had thought.
But I had to let go of that hurt. I had to put on my big girl panties and realize that God makes no mistakes. And those mistakes I had made in the past were trials and tribulations, which turned into testimonies. What I thought I'd lost, I gained in so many other ways.
After I had let go and literally let God, blessings were pouring in from all directions. A new job with a $25k increase in salary, I'm driving my dream car, and most importantly, I met the man of my dreams - won't He do it?
Aside from the material blessings and my new love, I thank God for the personal growth I experienced. And I cry because God blessed me with self-love and self-worth. I realized my value. This did nothing but made me stronger. With God, my family, and Beyonce's Lemonade album, I knew I would come up on top!
And I'm still growing. I'm only 27. There's still growth to come.
I just wanted to share my story and encourage other women that have similar stories that they too will come through this. No matter how embarrassing, hurtful, painful a situation might be, it doesn't define you. It's how you rise above it and handle it that does! You are a fighter. You are who you say you are!
So don't let that loser in your past get the best of you. Know your worth! I know that bed looks cozy and that ice cream is calling your name but don't fall into that trap of feeling sorry for yourself. Get up, work out, and kick that sadness to the curve!
Hang in there, loves.
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This Black Woman-Owned Creative Agency Shows Us The Art Of Rebranding
Rebranding is an intricate process and very important to the success of businesses that want to change. However, before a business owner makes this decision, they should determine whether it's a rebrand or an evolution.
That's where people like Lola Adewuya come in. Lola is the founder and CEO of The Brand Doula, a brand development studio with a multidisciplinary approach to branding, social media, marketing, and design.
While an evolution is a natural progression that happens as businesses grow, a rebrand is a total change. Lola tells xoNecole, "A total rebrand is necessary when a business’s current reputation/what it’s known for is at odds with the business’s vision or direction.
"For example, if you’ve fundamentally changed what your product is and does, it’s likely that your brand is out of alignment with the business. Or, if you find your company is developing a reputation that doesn’t serve it, it might be time to pump the brakes and figure out what needs to change.
She continues, "Sometimes you’ll see companies (especially startups) announce a name change that comes with updated messaging, visuals, etc. That usually means their vision has changed or expanded, and their previous branding was too narrow/couldn’t encompass everything they planned to do."
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The Brand Doula was born in 2019, and its focus is on putting "the experiences, goals, and needs of women of color founders first," as well as brands with "culture-shifting missions."
According to Lola, culture-shifting is "the act of influencing dominant behavior, beliefs, or experiences in a community or group (ideally, for the better)."
"At The Brand Doula, we work with companies and leaders that set out to challenge the status quo in their industries and communities. They’re here to make an impact that sends ripples across the market," she says.
"We help the problem solvers of the world — the ones who aren't satisfied with 'this is how it's always been' and instead ask 'how could this be better?' Our clients build for impact, reimagining tools, systems, and ways of living to move cultures forward."
The Brand Doula has worked with many brands, including Too Collective, to assist with their collaboration with Selena Gomez's Rare Beauty and Balanced Black Girl for a "refresh," aka rebrand. For businesses looking to rebrand, Lola shares four essential steps.
1. Do an audit of your current brand experience — what’s still relevant and what needs to change? Reflect on why you’re doing the rebrand in the first place and what success would look like after relaunching.
2. Tackle the overall strategy first — before you start redesigning logos and websites, align on a new vision for your brand. How do you want your company to be positioned moving forward? Has your audience changed at all? Will your company have a fresh personality and voice?
3. Bring your audience along the journey — there’s no need to move in secret. Inviting your current audience into the journey can actually help them feel more connected to and invested in your story, enough to stick around as changes are being made.
4. Keep business moving — one of my biggest pet peeves is when companies take down their websites as soon as they have the idea to rebrand, then have a Coming Soon page up for months! You lose a lot of momentum and interest by doing that. If you’re still in business and generating income, continue to operate while you work on your rebrand behind the scenes. You don’t want to cut existing customers off out of the blue, and you also don’t want so much downtime that folks forget your business exists or start looking for other solutions.
While determining whether the rebrand was successful may take a few months, Lola says a clear sign that it is unsuccessful is negative feedback from your target audience. "Customers are typically more vocal about what they don’t like more than what they do like," she says.
But some good signs to look out for are improvements in engagement with your marketing, positive reviews, press and increase in retention, and overall feeling aligned with the new branding.
For more information about Lola and The Brand Doula, visit her website, thebranddoula.com.
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Exclusive: After Focusing On His Career For So Long, David Banner Is Now Ready To Find A Wife
During the Fight Night: The Million Dollar Heistpremiere, David Banner, who stars in the film, opened up about his weight loss and his desire to get married and start a family. At 50, David has accomplished many feats, from rapping, producing, and acting, and now he's ready for the next phase of his life. "I want to get married," he tells xoNecole.
"I'm tired. I want to find my wife, have some kids. We chase all of these esoteric goals, and sometimes we look back, and we left the things that really matter. I looked up one day, I had all of them, the music accolades, the film accolades, not all the ones that I want, but a lot of them. I had accomplished my goal, had chased my goal so long that when I looked up, I saw that I ran off and left everything else."
He also shares how working in the entertainment industry can sometimes affect his life and relationships with others. "We forget to be human beings, and people don't allow us to be human beings," he continues. "So, that's the reason why I said what I said, because I know what y'all platform means, and I want people to know that there are still some human beings that's up on that camera, and sometimes we hurt too."
Back in 2016, the "Like a Pimp" artist released the single "Marry Me" and shared in an exclusive interview with us how he is working on becoming his best self for his future wife.
"I just want to be the man that most Black women want to marry. I want to be a Black man that stands strong," he said. "I'm not perfect, but [I want to be the man] women want to marry and that kids want to be their father. I want to be that man. [When I die] I want people to say that that's a strong African man, I am proud that he's a part of my culture."
During our most recent interview with the "Get Like Me" rapper, he also revealed that he lost 35 lbs and dished on how important it is to take care of your body. "I have this thing that I want to be our children's superhero on the screen and off, and people always talk about mental health, but part of your mental health is what you put in your body," he says.
"People always talk about God. People always talk about the church, but the real church is your body, your temple. So I am treating my body and my temple as if God is in there."
Fight Night is out now on Peacock.
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